now i working in development sector i like writing but sadly i need to give it up maybe about a year i lend my sister my favorite laptop she need it so now i need to saving a bit buy another laptop maybe now i start drawing again i got blank space in my mind thinking about what to draw lately I've been listening to lana del rey, anne marie - do it right, major lazer ft wild belle and etc my youtube playlist adding up everyday about anime maybe i going to watch death parade.
0 Comments
. hari ni xnak melukis..sebab sekarang selalu sibuk je. buat tu buat ni, (emmm..kalau sibuk sangat kenapa ade mase pulak nak layan anime ye .....mweehehehhe) aku membesar dengan persekitaran komik,anime, .....masa budak2 ,minat anime untuk budak2.bila dah besar tukar genre untuk orang dewasa pulak. dan ibu bapa sila perhatikan anak anda.( wow ibu bapa! ade ke ibu bapa nak godek blog ni..x pasti la, ada kot. jarang.blog lain mungkin ya.blog ni x kot..bwahahahha.) walaupun definisi anime bagi anda adalah sama macam watak animasi disney atau upin dan ipin , cici dan caca, tapi tidak bagi golongan seperti kami. anime pun ada yang rated r jugak. macam movie hollywood. Banyak genre : cth, seram, matang, slice of life, kelakar, romantika de amor, dewasa, note : anime = animasi dari jepun. ok sekarang cerita pasal anime dan aku . aku memang kurang minat dengan anime yang da jadi trending. yang popular. memang kurang minat. entah x seronok. macam naruto, one piece, bleach. memang aku tak ikuti perkembangan diorang. bukan anime die x best. tapi aku cepat muak. sebab orang selalu bercerita. aku suka anime yang orang kurang amik port tapi sebenarnya best. best la bagi aku. bagi orang lain aku tak tahu la pulak. sekarang tengah dok layan Sakurako san no Ashimoto ni wa Shitai ga Umatteiru maksud die "A Corpse is Buried Under Sakurako's Feet" tapi boleh jugak cari under nama Beautiful Bones. (buat aku teringat cerita the lovely bones). Sinopsis: mengenai seorang budak lelaki sekolah menengah yang bernama shoutaro bertemu dengan sakurako iaitu seorang perempuan yang pakar mengenai tulang. Shoutaro ni selalu teman Sakurako cari tulang binatang . Tapi selalunya mereka bukan jumpa tulang binatang akan tetapi tulang manusia. Dan bermulalah siri penyiasatan ......... p/s: aku ni lembab ubi sikit. lepas tengok cerita ni baru aku tau airmata ni pun darah jugak cuma tak ade plasma je... lain2 anime aku suka tengok ialah tokyo ghoul (sebab die cerita mengenai kedua-dua belah pihak ).
eyeshield 21 (buat aku rasa adrenaline rush Ya-Haaaa!) deadman wonderland ( manga die aku baca sampai habis. memang umphh! ) well...this thing just popped in my head.
as you can see above, that was a baby. a sleeping baby. years by years my number keep counting. from baby, we got into phase by phase...which mean i'm getting older. like a tradition for most people, we celebrated our birthday. well....,it was not i never had one in my entire life, it just i'm not the type of celebrating birthday. if people say hi!happy birthday! i gonna be "owh ..okay thank you!! :D". and i just smile ,taking picture. stuffed food in my stomach. follow the flows. (just my personal view) celebrated a birthday sometimes make me feel like "owh..uwmm, i feel like i celebrated my death counting number" . when someone say " wahhhh, selamat hari lahir. umur dah meningkat!.semoga bahagia.!' the contradiction ---> "wahhhh, makin cepat nak mati. " quite eerie right. make me felt ghastly everytime. but, that is life. we born to die. the thing is why i write something like this =='.. leave it at that, actually what i'm going to write is when i saw the baby , i always wondering about my mom. did she like me better when i was a kid? or a growns up? i bet when i was a kid she hope i grow up faster. but when i grow up did i failed her? i think i make her quite upset lately. not just lately, maybe always. i am bad in so many thing and try to be good in so many things . when i fall, i believed , i'm my own savior. i always get up. if i can't , i will force myself to get up. life is not to be waste by dwelling with the past.i have so many hateful in this life. i also have so many thing that i cheerish in this life. but however , i did have a fear in lot of things. and, my biggest fear was being a failure. not to anyone. but to her. to my mother. she was strong women . |
AuthorDrawing.eating. Recent Post |